Random Shades of Blue

I miss him…but apparently not enough. Probably won’t get to see him on my birthday, or anytime that week for that matter. I suppose for his birthday I’ll just drop off the pie I’m making him and go. I love feeling unwanted. It’s swell. 

I’ve lost my boyfriend to Diablo III. I invited him to my friends Graduation, but I doubt he’ll wanna drive here for that. So I won’t see him till late next week, because I’ll have a rental and I’m “not allowed” to leave the city. Tis Gay! Tomorrow will be gay as well. But whatever. 

But Everything is better now. I went to see him today, hence why I miss him, and we talked and cuddled, and did all the fun stuff couples do. I guess I was over thinking things like I usually do. There was nothing wrong. He makes me happy beyond measure and I just love being around him. 

I can honestly say that I love him. I haven’t said that to him, and I don’t wanna say it first, because what if he doesn’t feel the same way right now? But I don’t want it to be a game. I hate that. I feel oddly compelled to make my feelings known though. 

Ehh… I just suck at relationships.  

Hmm… I get it now. 

Anonymous asked: I like spicy muffins.

Spicy muffins sound grand. lol